And the Stars Twinkle as Do Your Eyes

Camping

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 02:04:58 GMT

so. Went Camping north of San Antonio. LMAO. Slept the whole day off on account of cold and dreary weather. Stayed up half the night due to a leaky camper. Went to take a shower to kill some time. Figured we would shower, dress, and go into town real quick for a deck of cards. Found out from people 'taking refuge" in teh restrooms we were under a tornado watch and advised to find a solid safe place. LOL. Went back to the camper, reported the news and decided to melt some chocolate to dip in bananas and marshmellows. settled down for the night. -- And wasn't settled for very long. Sister, rei and I ended up sleeping in teh Yukon at 3am.
We woke up around 8 to beautiful weather, made breakfast, decided not to take any more chances, packed up and went home. i put on my swim suit, layed on the porch for about 1/2 hour. Came back and watched movies all day.
What an experience.
So tomorrow daddy's and I are making the table for my room and then I think I'm off to rei's for ..mmm..more bumming around. I'll check in later
Love
Squishy.

BTW - KenKen's party was ...something else. I don't think i've ever been so .. ?entertained? is that the word? LOL. I think I need to get out more. Seriously. I need to be dragged out of my house..or more like my hermit of a home..and experience the life of a typical teenager.

Yays! I moved!

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 02:23:44 GMT

So my painting is complete from Christmas Break and we put the wood floors in and we finally moved my bed and dresser into my sister's old room..my new room.
However, there are still a few minor kinks. the trimm will go on next Saturday, and the computer will have to stay in the old room (which has been stripped of carpet) until we buy a wireless card for my computer.
So, i feel like a work in a shithole (wait 'till you see it) and Sleep like royalty

I am so in love with this room now

been a while

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 00:14:54 GMT

Haven't updated in a while. This place seems distant to me now, not so say i don't miss it though.i just saw the date. 8th. Which made me realize that on Tuesday Diego and I will have been together for a while now. I realized this summer, that everything I had been telling others to help them, went from my mind to their ears and completely bypassed mine.When people stopped asking me for advice and i had only myself to listen to - I realized it was true. If its the right thing to do, and it makes you happy, then what others think should never matter. Because in the end, you are the one who must live with your life's decisions and be happy with them. -- Plus LindaLuvs comment will forever float among my thoughts. i think its the best advice i've ever heard or taken from anyone. - including things I tell others.;)
Shcools going nicely, my grades are better than they have been since freshman year, and I think what mommie says rings true "you are who you hang around with" though it is upsetting that no matter how exciting I am about my passing grade on a test, its still ridiculous to diego's constand 100's and high 90's. Chemistry is still disappointing. It obviously is not and will never be a forte on mine. Math can be worked on and improved, but chemistry will always be a lost cause.
I miss my mom, i think. Which makes me sad. She has been working in Corpus for over a year now. And it makes me sad bc i hardly welcome her on friday when she arrives, spend all day Saturday out- always. and help her pack her bags on sunday without to much as a second thought. I even carry them to the car for her. And it makes me sad to know I don't miss my mommie. I want to miss her. I want to need to call her everyday. But I hardly call her once a week, and usually its if i need something. I miss missing her. And only fear that I will become one of those people that moves away from her family and har

[19:05] blackenedsoul188: face it lisa we aren't waiting to growing up anymore, we have run into it and stopped already.
[19:07] twilightrun78: true
[19:07] twilightrun78: but whos to say u still cant enjoy what u have
[19:08] blackenedsoul188: never said that. just so odd to think how old we really are. its one of those things you never realize you have till its gone
[19:09] blackenedsoul188: you know since I was little, like 7 i always said i wantedto be 16, because you weren't too young to be stupid, and too old to think your abover everything
[19:11] blackenedsoul188: and its true, but I had forgotten i had always wished to be this age until this past summer. and now its almost over and keep thinking back to wonder what I've done with this year of my life that would make me say that "at 16, my ideal age, i experienced the life i always thougt I would"

ha-ha-Happy Birfday!

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 14:04:37 GMT

I think today happened to be one of those odd "in the cosmic stars" days, as I must say happy birthday to those dearest friends and family of mine.
happy birthday mommie....whose now the old age of 45, still feeling like she's twenty
and mr bryan - whose goals for the future will be successful if he continues as he is now
and mr will mills - whom I haven't spoken to in a while, but nevertheless, have not forgotten

; ) May your birthday wishes come true!

And the World's Eyes Begin to Open

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 02:31:45 GMT

Models are not not allowed to be "too thin"...

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 22:40:39 GMT

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

So, here's how it works:

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question press the next button.
Ready? GO!

Opening Credits:
A Perfect Circle - The Rose

(a little somber, but okay)

Waking Up:
Casting Crowns - Glory

(hm, interesting)

Falling In Love:
! The Postal Service - Brand New Colony !

(okay I cheated on that one, but thats what I hope I hear when I look at the one I love, I promise - I want it played at my wedding i've yet to imagine ; ) )

Fight Song:
Pantera - Walk

(hm, its like it knew what I was looking for)

Breaking Up:
(aww! - it sounds so angry!) Chevelle - Anticipation

Making up:

Hellogoodbye - Oh Its love
(lol, how cute! I promise its on random, as they come)

Life's Okay:
Micheal Buble - What a Wonderful World

Mental Breakdown:
Hellogoodbye - Touchdown Turnaround

(oh! i can't stand this song, just like I hate crying)

Driving:
A Perfect Circle - Thinking of You

(thats scary, l see the dark fog and full moon, and lol - the shotgun on my lap as I'm going to murder someone - jamming out on the way)

Flashbacks:
LIfehouse - Breathing

Happy Dance:
Matchbox Twenty - Disease

Regretting:
The Used - Maybe Memories

Final Battle:
Theatre Of Tragedy - As the Shadows Dance

Death Scene:
LMAO - John Denver - Take Me Home Country Roads

((most of them made sense, i think i changed two answers, but i still just kept it random and clicked the 'next' button))

OPEN HOUSE

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 01:58:03 GMT

Lol, today was so much fun! I stayed for open house, though my mom didn't show up. I planned on lounging around and hanging out with teachers. Instead I was pulled into the library and volunteered to help the VIVA peer tutors. I though I was just going to help set the table and give out papers and whatnot.
Instead, ... I received a free VIVA peer tutor shirt that began my impersonation of a tutor as I continued to stand and explain the summer program in connection with MedlinePlus. - I think I pulled off a great impersonation when I realized the parents thought I was in the program. They looked and said "oh, thats wonderful, so you've been in it for a couple of years now, right?" And Mrs.Reibman prospectively offered me a potential invitation to apply for the job in the summer. Lol I think I will. It sounds like fun..at least from what I heard..from myself.
And I finally say Ms.Van Cleefe. I think thats how you spell her name. She's pretty, long dark blonde hair, round face, glasses, slender. She looked friendly. I met marissa and celina's parents..and saw michelle's and marco's mom, again. Lol. I felt like her long-lost daughter. And then we finally ran into Diego's dad. - goodness.
It was a little funny. Diego had told his dad the students didn't go with the parents to meet the teachers. And i said "what?! of course they do! that the whole point of us being here! Diego! how could you do that to your dad?..." hehe. I just caused a little bit a rucous. ..well kinda a little bit. But his dad began joking around and said in spanish "yes diego, how do you expect me to speak with them" and then in the spanish-english accent said "i don't know english!!" lol it was so cute. .. of course until he walked away and diego gave me that threatening look that made me think I might have to walk home to edinburg. He was looked at me and said through his teeth "you are so incredibly unbelievable... i can't believe you did that..just you wait.."
So, in conclusion, my night was super fun. .. I blame the t-shirt; its vivid color absorbed itself into my emotional output and made me cheerful and energetic. lol i guess thats what turqoise shirts do to you. ..perhaps i should own more..or maybe not, thats a lot of cheerfulness. I don't think I could handle that much everyday. Oh well. .. I hear HW calling upon my aching brain and shoulder, being hunched over a desk all day is being to get to me.

Sun, 13 Aug 2006 03:27:35 GMT

Oh today was such a wonderful day. I took a break, left my phone at home (lol though I missed no calls), and declared todays "mommie day" we spent the entire day by ourselves until about 7.
We got up early, russled a quick shower, took off for breakfast. Recieved a call that the hair appointment before ours was cancelled. Took off, got lost, found it, and 5 1/2 hours later, we walked out beautiful. We stopped for a quick drive through meal, hardly ate it and continued to our already 45 minutes late facials. I am quickly learning that the words "cejas" (spelling) is a synonym for pain and I was seating for an eyebrow waxing as mom got her facial. We left and shopped at my mom's favorite store - Tuesday Mornings - where we fatefullly ran into the aunt we had received a call from earlier. I declined her offer to join her, I call it fate, - my mom's sister called and said "lets meet up". So an hour later, we are eating out and laughing at nonsense. A trip to .. somewhere...Biglots I think..I walk out with 5 items..but only one of them really made me smile. LOL - the cutest assorted gummi bears! I think i'll take them on the first day of school. - For those of us dreading us, perhaps they will bring a smile, and pull us together. - I honestly think gummi bears are like that miracle food that grandma makes that always makes you feel better no matter what.
I was even in such a good mood that I bought meiko TWO toys..vs the none I usually come home with.He loved them. So my day was so incredibly .. great. I love "mommie days" We did absolutely nothing but pamper ourselves and lazily shop on impulse. So relaxing.

*Except on the random note that we have discovered my facial skin is uber sensitive.10 minutes of warm-water towels, facial scrubs and hand rubs - I walked out of the room looking like someone had smacked my face around. It was bright red for 20 minutes. Like a sunburn, but not the dry look. It was bad, and after the wax - forget it. lol it was pretty funny though. I walked out and my mom saw me and said "geezus veronica, what teh hell did they do to you?!?"

Gross, yet intrigueing

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 00:36:53 GMT

i know i usually don't display crude things like this but i saw the icon on a comment under a freinds page. At first glance I was like "what teh hell is that" and then I was like "oh, my..that..uh.." anyways check it out.

weird huh?

Evil Memes

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 04:46:15 GMT

Once you are tagged you MUST write an entry about 6 weird habits/things you do/odd information, as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next six people to be tagged and list their names.
* i eat alot of foods in a circle. Edge first all the way around then work my way in; hamburgers sandwiches, reeses ect.
* I prefer huggles & snuggles to kisses
* Like to lick and or bite people
* I frequently name inadimate (spelling?) objects like remote controls and blankies
* Carry a blankie with me when I travel, includes cars to others houses, and around my house
* Bought lingerie all by myself for the first time in my life yesterday

tag - linda - casscass - bryan - celina - marissa - clarisa
and anyone else you wants to

Life/Death/Love

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 05:01:12 GMT

I do not think I am yet ready to _die.

-Why not-
Because I have notlived ^life.

-And what is life to you-
What is that of _life than ^love itself.

This is a super cute quiz.Take IT!

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 00:34:58 GMT

I read all the results and found many of you .. its worth it.

What is your element? [with pics + detailed answeres]

Your element is Water. You have a calm aura around you and are in tune with the world around. You observe it but rarely interfere. Because of your shy and timid nature you will not have so many friends in your life. But then again, large crowds aren't your thing anyway. You are comfortable on your own and are reserved to others who you don't know or know very little of. You know everyone out there does not want to be your friend, and knowing that is good. However, people who don't know you that well thinks that you are cold and distant since you don't want to talk to them. Although you mean no harm, you can't always be perfectly understood in the world. No one can. Life in general are you quite serene with even if there are some things you don't like. Your love-life is not so full of boys/girls, but if you flirted more with the ones you were interested in I'm sure something would happen. The hobbies you choose are calmer ones, you are no party person that likes to drink and make-out with three or more guys/girls in one night. Reading a book or swimming is more your thing.
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Well...I COULD HAVE been studying for my final...BUT

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 04:19:05 GMT

These seemed more interesting

You Are a Chimera

You are very outgoing and well connected to many people.
Incredibly devoted to your family and friends, you find purpose in nurturing others.
You are rarely alone, and you do best in the company of others.
You are incredibly expressive, and people are sometimes overwhelmed by your strong emotions.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love.

You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?

You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back.

In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.

Break-ups can be painful for you, but you never show it. You hold your head high.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

You Are a Peach Jelly Bean

You have a distinct style that you don't really have to work for. You're genuinely quirky, and people love your understated charm.

What Flavor Jelly Bean Are You?

You Are 60% Lady

You're part lady, part modern woman.
Etiquette is important to you, but you brush aside rules that are outdated or silly.

Are You A Lady?

Sometimes, Even I Need to be Reminded

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 06:37:29 GMT

I posted this comment months ago, to a dear freind that needed it... and now its my turn to have my heavy heart lifted.

Prayers aren't answered because your faith isn't it it. .. because its like praying with an empty heart..how can you give to God when there's nothing there to give.

People want to be who they were before because thats all theyv'e ever known. Even if you were sad and emo then..and happy now..being sad emo is who are you and its what you know, and its easier than being happy. Its a comfort zone. but being able to adapt and change is very important, you must be able to change according to your environment.

...try...just try..mean what you pray and pray what you mean. ... Close you eyes and see His face before you and look him in the eye and then, right then, - thats when you go from a ritualistic prayer to a real prayer, a meaningful conversation with God, that's when he begings to listen and answer his children.

It Took Me All Day To Discover Your Color

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 04:06:36 GMT

Rei ... you are a difficult color to place, but I have discovered, you are a seafoam green (like bluegreen) Dark, rich, and full of life

Click My Name

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 02:35:31 GMT

Check out my new personal page design. I managed to figure out a way to place a cursor in there..I was looking for a teddy bear as cute as my icon..but that's not exactly the way my story ended let me know if it worked

Are We Distinctly Indentifiable by Others?

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 20:30:32 GMT

Lets say its a project. Identify your friends by a specific catagory. ie - animals, bands, songs, movies, medications, cartoons, sports. ... you have been assigned colors. I was thinking today of colors and their characters portrayed.
bryan - navy blue
linda - dusty rose
marissa - orange
cassie - rich green
marco - subtle gray
ken - light brown(it has nothing to do with his actual color)
Lauren R. - Subtle pink, or turqouise

sister - violet
ewic - baby blue
camcam - dark orange

their were only two I was at a lost for, myself, and diego.
Do you agree? I do indeed have logical explanations if you care to know just ask
...maybe i'm red, or marooon.

The Sweet Things That Make You Cry

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 05:40:25 GMT

Its safe (to hide from emotions) but when you look back and just want to remember all those good things you'll only remember the chances you could have taken but never did.
--From the beautiful mind of Ms. Linaluv--
(to get it straight for marissa)

whoohoo meme from rei!

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 03:41:06 GMT

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	× I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (at least i think i haven't been...)	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now.
✓ I love sushi.	✓ I talk really, really fast. (esp if i work out in the morning)	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
✓ I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	× I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	✓ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look.	✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	✓ I am usually pessimistic.
× I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent.	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	× I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex. (lol i think it was more than a peck..)	× I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	✓ I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone.	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future. (4)
× I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	✓ I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal. (like I am doing now)	✓ I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends.	✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
× I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	✓ I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
× I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	× I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	× I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	× I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	✓ I still have every journal I've ever written in. (poetry ones..with dates...and times they were written)	× I talk in my sleep.
✓ I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	× I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	× I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
✓ I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	✓ I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	× Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	× I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone.	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
✓ I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. (oh..can I even count the times)
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	✓ I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	✓ I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	× I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	× I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	✓ I've gone skinny-dipping.	× I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	✓ I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
× I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	× I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	× I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

Guess I'll just answer my own Q's

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 23:16:27 GMT

1. Name one emotionally difficult thing you would like to overcome before you pass on.
take someone I love the middle of a public place. stop. look them square in the eye. kiss them with everyone watching and tell them aloud i love them
2. Where would you go, money isn't an issue?
somewhere its pouring down beautiful rain and i can look up and see all stars as clear as day.
3. Who would you make yourself see and let them know how you really feel?
all of those friends/boyfreinds/bestfriends i loved and cared for and never told them how i truelly felt
4. Would you make/write something to leave behind for others to know you by?. if so what?
yes. i would scrapbook all my memories of friends and places, poems, and important entries. I think if i had children, i would write letters of life to them with pictures of things i once loved, like rain and mango lotion
5. Would you live like you were dying? And what is that to you?
yes. i would be responsibley irrational. do what i do and live completely for the moment. i wouldn't think "no, i won't eat it bc its bad for me" or "hm, i have all day to get out of bed" i would get up, dress in whatever i want, a nice dress just to go sit at starbucks, and live with my heart and emotions right on my sleeve. i would live like the world is perfect and today deserves to be happily enjoyed.

emo questions

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 02:32:37 GMT

you feel sick and tired. fatigued. pale. You go to the doctor and they say you're dying. You don't have much time. The doctor tells you that your rare illness will cease all symptoms and you will die suddenly and without warning.
1. Name one emotionally difficult thing you would like to overcome before you pass on.
2. Where would you go, money isn't an issue?
3. Who would you make you see and let them know how you really feel?
4. Would you make/write something to leave behind for others to know you by?. if so what?
5. Would you live like you were dying? And what is that to you?

Midsummer is in our midst

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 01:15:02 GMT

Summer is going great for me. I'm really glad i decided to put my foot down and stay here for once in my life.
STC is good. have an A, and come July i'll be taking two classes, so that will replace my dr. ed that end next friday, that gosh. i'm so sick of that class.
I'm not doing much, made a couple of ?purses? lol its just a bag to put my binder in for class. Thats when Diego stopped putting up a fight to carry my stuff, bc the bag had a pink bow made of ribbon on it.
I've picked up some scrapbooking also, figured its a good way to let go and get rid of old people and things and memories of what not. I find it relaxing to see me putting things together that will last forever, insteading of just pulling out a shoebox and flipping through things.
When i get the chance i think i'll scrapbook my poems too.
While i'm not sleeping all day and bumming around, i am quite enjoying the summer. content.

Whoohoo New Questions!!

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 02:31:27 GMT

1. Who was your first kiss (your mom does not count)?
2. Can you remember or do you have a favorite kiss that has happened?
3. Do you have a "dream" kiss? ( on the beach, in rain, wedding day)
4. What your idea of the perfect kiss? (5 or 4 w/out who W's)
5. Do you believe in kissing someone you are not involved with?(whether ot not you've done it before)

Well, i was told told i LOOKED beautiful...

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 02:20:20 GMT

But that could be debatable. I woke up around 4:30 or 5 to take a shower Friday morning. Worried all through Drivers Ed. and paced around till one. The shoes came around 2 as well as the purse and i finally calmed down. Got my peach dress and corset ready and placed it in the car with the rest of my stuff and went to get my hair done at 2:30. And by a little after 3 I was heading to Weslaco, I arrived around 4.
I got dressed when the other girls arrived to help eachother. and we lingered until six until Janessa's de bu started. I went wonderfly. I was so gorgous. All three of her dresses were amazing. While our dance was a little messed up, we were still encored, and we danced again with fewer mistakes. lol. it was so hard trying not to laugh. I wish my sister had taken pictures like she promised. But oh well. I guess all i'll have are the memories of wonder.
I had the time of my life. No regret and everything with smiles and laughter. I danced and laughed and joked around. Saw all the people that make my day no matter how horrible its going. I love them all to pieces. I'm glad I didn't back out and I'm glad I stayed 'till the end. I was worth it getting to sleep at 2 am exhausted and aching. My back still hurts a tad from sitting and standing so straight with the corset and my right hurts from teh 3" high heels. ... But is was so worth it. I hope Janessa had the time of her life. Maybe I can get in touch with someone who took pics

Broken Grace (Don't know the date...found it on my chem notes)

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 18:15:44 GMT

Walking lonely down my road,
loosely kicking pepples of thought.
Nothing left to waste my time.
Beacons of light fading fast.
Here Today, gone tomorrow,
Poes words, lingering to memories.
Broken promises and bleeding pens,
Bookes lay scattered, strewn across the floor
But none can save me from my sweet sanity.
Silently clawing at my mind,
gently eating through my soul.
Feel the burn, feel the rage.
but more and more of me is gone.
Save me from my grace,
from good things left behind.