And · the · Stars · Twinkle · as · Do · Your · Eyes

so. Went Camping north of San Antonio. LMAO. Slept the whole day off on account of cold and dreary weather. Stayed up half the night due to a leaky camper. Went to take a shower to kill some time. Figured we would shower, dress, and go into town real quick for a deck of cards. Found out from people 'taking refuge" in teh restrooms we were under a tornado watch and advised to find a solid safe place. LOL. Went back to the camper, reported the news and decided to melt some chocolate to dip in bananas and marshmellows. settled down for the night. -- And wasn't settled for very long. Sister, rei and I ended up sleeping in teh Yukon at 3am.
We woke up around 8 to beautiful weather, made breakfast, decided not to take any more chances, packed up and went home. i put on my swim suit, layed on the porch for about 1/2 hour. Came back and watched movies all day.
What an experience.
So tomorrow daddy's and I are making the table for my room and then I think I'm off to rei's for ..mmm..more bumming around. I'll check in later
Love
Squishy.

BTW - KenKen's party was ...something else. I don't think i've ever been so .. ?entertained? is that the word? LOL. I think I need to get out more. Seriously. I need to be dragged out of my house..or more like my hermit of a home..and experience the life of a typical teenager.

So my painting is complete from Christmas Break and we put the wood floors in and we finally moved my bed and dresser into my sister's old room..my new room.
However, there are still a few minor kinks. the trimm will go on next Saturday, and the computer will have to stay in the old room (which has been stripped of carpet) until we buy a wireless card for my computer.
So, i feel like a work in a shithole (wait 'till you see it) and Sleep like royalty

I am so in love with this room now
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Haven't updated in a while. This place seems distant to me now, not so say i don't miss it though.i just saw the date. 8th. Which made me realize that on Tuesday Diego and I will have been together for a while now. I realized this summer, that everything I had been telling others to help them, went from my mind to their ears and completely bypassed mine.When people stopped asking me for advice and i had only myself to listen to - I realized it was true. If its the right thing to do, and it makes you happy, then what others think should never matter. Because in the end, you are the one who must live with your life's decisions and be happy with them. -- Plus LindaLuvs comment will forever float among my thoughts. i think its the best advice i've ever heard or taken from anyone. - including things I tell others.;)
Shcools going nicely, my grades are better than they have been since freshman year, and I think what mommie says rings true "you are who you hang around with" though it is upsetting that no matter how exciting I am about my passing grade on a test, its still ridiculous to diego's constand 100's and high 90's. Chemistry is still disappointing. It obviously is not and will never be a forte on mine. Math can be worked on and improved, but chemistry will always be a lost cause.
I miss my mom, i think. Which makes me sad. She has been working in Corpus for over a year now. And it makes me sad bc i hardly welcome her on friday when she arrives, spend all day Saturday out- always. and help her pack her bags on sunday without to much as a second thought. I even carry them to the car for her. And it makes me sad to know I don't miss my mommie. I want to miss her. I want to need to call her everyday. But I hardly call her once a week, and usually its if i need something. I miss missing her. And only fear that I will become one of those people that moves away from her family and har

[19:05] blackenedsoul188: face it lisa we aren't waiting to growing up anymore, we have run into it and stopped already.
[19:07] twilightrun78: true
[19:07] twilightrun78: but whos to say u still cant enjoy what u have
[19:08] blackenedsoul188: never said that. just so odd to think how old we really are. its one of those things you never realize you have till its gone
[19:09] blackenedsoul188: you know since I was little, like 7 i always said i wantedto be 16, because you weren't too young to be stupid, and too old to think your abover everything
[19:11] blackenedsoul188: and its true, but I had forgotten i had always wished to be this age until this past summer. and now its almost over and keep thinking back to wonder what I've done with this year of my life that would make me say that "at 16, my ideal age, i experienced the life i always thougt I would"

I think today happened to be one of those odd "in the cosmic stars" days, as I must say happy birthday to those dearest friends and family of mine.
happy birthday mommie....whose now the old age of 45, still feeling like she's twenty
and mr bryan - whose goals for the future will be successful if he continues as he is now
and mr will mills - whom I haven't spoken to in a while, but nevertheless, have not forgotten

; ) May your birthday wishes come true!

Lol, today was so much fun! I stayed for open house, though my mom didn't show up. I planned on lounging around and hanging out with teachers. Instead I was pulled into the library and volunteered to help the VIVA peer tutors. I though I was just going to help set the table and give out papers and whatnot.
Instead, ... I received a free VIVA peer tutor shirt that began my impersonation of a tutor as I continued to stand and explain the summer program in connection with MedlinePlus. - I think I pulled off a great impersonation when I realized the parents thought I was in the program. They looked and said "oh, thats wonderful, so you've been in it for a couple of years now, right?" And Mrs.Reibman prospectively offered me a potential invitation to apply for the job in the summer. Lol I think I will. It sounds like fun..at least from what I heard..from myself.
And I finally say Ms.Van Cleefe. I think thats how you spell her name. She's pretty, long dark blonde hair, round face, glasses, slender. She looked friendly. I met marissa and celina's parents..and saw michelle's and marco's mom, again. Lol. I felt like her long-lost daughter. And then we finally ran into Diego's dad. - goodness.
It was a little funny. Diego had told his dad the students didn't go with the parents to meet the teachers. And i said "what?! of course they do! that the whole point of us being here! Diego! how could you do that to your dad?..." hehe. I just caused a little bit a rucous. ..well kinda a little bit. But his dad began joking around and said in spanish "yes diego, how do you expect me to speak with them" and then in the spanish-english accent said "i don't know english!!" lol it was so cute. .. of course until he walked away and diego gave me that threatening look that made me think I might have to walk home to edinburg. He was looked at me and said through his teeth "you are so incredibly unbelievable... i can't believe you did that..just you wait.."
So, in conclusion, my night was super fun. .. I blame the t-shirt; its vivid color absorbed itself into my emotional output and made me cheerful and energetic. lol i guess thats what turqoise shirts do to you. ..perhaps i should own more..or maybe not, thats a lot of cheerfulness. I don't think I could handle that much everyday. Oh well. .. I hear HW calling upon my aching brain and shoulder, being hunched over a desk all day is being to get to me.

i know i usually don't display crude things like this but i saw the icon on a comment under a freinds page. At first glance I was like "what teh hell is that" and then I was like "oh, my..that..uh.." anyways check it out.

Once you are tagged you MUST write an entry about 6 weird habits/things you do/odd information, as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next six people to be tagged and list their names.
* i eat alot of foods in a circle. Edge first all the way around then work my way in; hamburgers sandwiches, reeses ect.
* I prefer huggles & snuggles to kisses
* Like to lick and or bite people
* I frequently name inadimate (spelling?) objects like remote controls and blankies
* Carry a blankie with me when I travel, includes cars to others houses, and around my house
* Bought lingerie all by myself for the first time in my life yesterday

tag - linda - casscass - bryan - celina - marissa - clarisa
and anyone else you wants to

I do not think I am yet ready to _die. 

-Why not-
Because I have not lived ^life. 

-And what is life to you- 
What is that of _life than ^love itself.

 

I read all the results and found many of you .. its worth it.

I posted this comment months ago, to a dear freind that needed it... and now its my turn to have my heavy heart lifted.

Prayers aren't answered because your faith isn't it it. .. because its like praying with an empty heart..how can you give to God when there's nothing there to give.

People want  to be who they were before because thats all theyv'e ever known. Even if you were sad and emo then..and happy now..being sad emo is who are you and its what you know, and its easier than being happy. Its a comfort zone. but being able to adapt and change is very important, you must be able to change according to your environment.

...try...just try..mean what you pray and pray what you mean. ... Close you eyes and see His face before you and look him in the eye and then, right then, - thats when you go from a ritualistic prayer to a real prayer, a meaningful conversation with God, that's when he begings to listen and answer his children.

Check out my new personal page design. I managed to figure out a way to place a cursor in there..I was looking for a teddy bear as cute as my icon..but that's not exactly the way my story ended let me know if it worked

Lets say its a project. Identify your friends by a specific catagory. ie - animals, bands, songs, movies, medications, cartoons, sports. ... you have been assigned colors. I was thinking today of colors and their characters portrayed.
bryan - navy blue
linda - dusty rose
marissa - orange
cassie - rich green
marco - subtle gray
ken - light brown(it has nothing to do with his actual color)
Lauren R. - Subtle pink, or turqouise

sister - violet
ewic - baby blue
camcam - dark orange

their were only two I was at a lost for, myself, and diego.
Do you agree? I do indeed have logical explanations if you care to know just ask
...maybe i'm red, or marooon.

Its safe (to hide from emotions) but when you look back and just want to remember all those good things you'll only remember the chances you could have taken but never did.
--From the beautiful mind of Ms. Linaluv--
(to get it straight for marissa)

(<a href="http://pyesetz.furtopia.org/meme-3col-DeathNote.html">Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	× I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.  (at least i think i haven't been...)	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

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1. Name one emotionally difficult thing you would like to overcome before you pass on.
take someone I love the middle of a public place. stop. look them square in the eye. kiss them with everyone watching and tell them aloud i love them
2. Where would you go, money isn't an issue?
somewhere its pouring down beautiful rain and i can look up and see all stars as clear as day.
3. Who would you make yourself see and let them know how you really feel?
all of those friends/boyfreinds/bestfriends i loved and cared for and never told them how i truelly felt
4. Would you make/write something to leave behind for others to know you by?. if so what?
yes. i would scrapbook all my memories of friends and places, poems, and important entries. I think if i had children, i would write letters of life to them with pictures of things i once loved, like rain and mango lotion
5. Would you live like you were dying? And what is that to you?
yes. i would be responsibley irrational. do what i do and live completely for the moment. i wouldn't think "no, i won't eat it bc its bad for me" or "hm, i have all day to get out of bed" i would get up, dress in whatever i want, a nice dress just to go sit at starbucks, and live with my heart and emotions right on my sleeve. i would live like the world is perfect and today deserves to be happily enjoyed.